So, it's been awhile since I've wrote to you. I'm not really sure why, I just think I decided it was best to keep things bottled up inside. I was looking back at what I wrote you the last time, and thank God I'm in a much better place than I was then. I've come a long way from the mistakes I made after Mom died. In many ways, I'm surprised I'm even still alive. I thank God for saving me from that and for helping me through it.

I know you and Mom would LOVE to see Kensley right now. She is growing so fast. Different things she says will remind me of you or Mom. Just little things that make me think you must be trying to speak through her, or at least let me know that you're watching over me.

Life has been hectic, financially and health-wise. I know I'll get through it, it's just always tough. You know that probably more than anyone. I just wish that I had you around at times like this so I could get your advice on what to do and wouldn't feel so alone. Amanda tries to reassure me, which helps, but I still wish you could be here to give me advice and help me along the way.

I have to say, though, that in the midst of everything, I am SO blessed. I have a beautiful family, a great job (even if it can be frustrating at times) and great friends. Even on my worse days, I am blessed - and I am grateful for that.

Gotta go for now, but I will talk to you soon. I love you!